When you’re an anxious wreck, relationships (not just romantic ones) can be emotionally draining. With all the personal pressure you put on yourself to just be happy with the people around you, with the attention that you already get, but sometimes your mental state won’t let you.
Fil Cala of Future Shapes has done a perfect job of making these feelings into relatable and catchy tunes. With a voice that cracks while spewing out their inner insecurities, the lyrics repeat just like those deep thoughts you keep covered in a rant about the amount of dogs in the city.
I don’t believe the music of Future Shapes would be possible if Fil wasn’t a white-passing queer Chican@, because their lyrics show the inhabitance of the dysphoria that comes from being different in society — looking one way, but being another. Just like the anxiety that inhabits the best of us, and just like the identity crises that we’re all ignoring.
The recently released music video for “Feel,” (off Microchasm) created by Neil Davis and shot in beautiful Fort Funston, visualizes the lyrics and the fear of being alone even when there are people that care.